A lot has happened since I resigned in 2004. One of the main reasons for why I resigned was because the church was punishing intellectuals while withholding information to the members; causing them to later doubt and have existential shock and trauma and feeling betrayed. I used to tell my LDS friends and LDS family members that the church needs to inoculate the membership to avoid further harm and people leaving. Fast forward from 2004 to 2018 and a lot has happened. In fact I feel vindicated, but more important the changes I have been protesting for have come to fruition.
I have also grown out of atheism-mortalism on psychological grounds, and into what I would call a pragmatic-mysticism and a greater appreciation of the Bible as metaphors of transformation.
After leaving Mormonism in 2004, my first experience with "church life" outside the LDS was being extremely turned off by an experience at an Evangelical Church. I then began to study traditional Christianity with the same critical-thinking lens as I had applied in my examination of Mormonism; and this of course led to me becoming an agnostic-atheist. After that I pretty much swore off church, the Bible, and spirituality all together and was a scientific-psychicalist.
Around five years ago I began to have a change of heart towards all things Christian and "spiritual" and discovered Marcus Borg and others like him; and found that I liked combining what Progressive Christians had to say with those like Eckhart Tolle and what I understand about science.
During this process I became open to attending a church for the social benefits that many atheist scholars and atheist scientists were saying we're good for the human immune system. After attending several churches in my area and getting in heated arguments with various pastors and ministers; and seeing how the Fundamentalists had essentially taken over Christianity (at least the brand name) for the most part; I began to become less and less angry with Mormonism in contrast to Fundamentalist Evangelical Christianity.
Then, overtime I started to accumulate in my mind all of the positive changes in the Mormon Church since 2004. One of my main reasons for resigning was the Seed of Cain dogma. Well, in 2013 the LDS church put out the essay Race and the Priesthood which essentially repudiated the Seed of Cain dogma as folklore.
Since 2004, The Joseph Smith Papers has developed and Bushman's Rough Stone Rolling was published and books like Planted by Patrick Q. Mason. Mormon apologists that were very distasteful in their tactics when I dealt with them around 2004, such as Luis Midgley and Daniel Peterson; have essentially been replaced with The Maxwell Institute and people like Spencer Fluhman.
I could go on and on with positive examples of changes for the better. My point is that these changes have taken the "fire out of my belly" so to speak. I have less and less to protest, less and less to feel righteous indignation about; less and less to push against.
I've not had some awakening that in my mind leads me to say, "Oh, oops, I was wrong about Mormonism; it is now actually factually true and supernaturally verifiable." No, that has not happened. My opinions about the Mormon church on scientific grounds have not changed at all for the most part; but I am undergoing a transition, a phase of sorts, in that in contrast to pre-2004 Mormonism, I am less angry at post-2004 Mormonism. Then when I think of the Fundamentalists and the Catholic church scandals, I am even further less angry with Mormonism. When I think about my life as an atheist and attending atheist social groups and realizing all groups and organizations have problems, I am once again, less angry with Mormonism.
I am still transitioning, into what I am unsure. But what I do know is that I have grown weary of being a Mormon critic. Much of what I protested, starting back in 2004, has been remedied by the LDS church. Do things still need to change in the LDS church, of course! So spare me the comments in the comment section of listing all the problems with Mormonism that sill needs to change. I know already.
As for me, my fight is over. I won the fight as my protests (which were the protests of a large many not just me, so I don't claim credit) have ended in the changes I was protesting for. I now pass the torch to others who feel the need to protest and criticize for further change. For I have far less of a problem with Mormonism than I used to, and it is time to move on.
Onto other things.